Decisions, Decisions. . .

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Today I am wracked by guilt. Why? Because, after priding myself on meeting book deadlines for six years, I have finally broken down and asked for a significant extension on something. But here’s the truth: I’m TIRED. And I so want the first book of this new series to shine, but all of my time on it so far has been taken up by research—and extensive revisions on another book. I don’t feel that I can do this new book justice in the time that I have left. So is it better to be up front about the situation and just ask for more time? Or is it death? LOL. Most authors I know just turn in the book late—a widespread and time-honored practice in publishing. But for some reason I am too anal retentive to do this—it would drive me crazy. Here I sit, waiting to hear from my agent about whether or not my publisher is going to hang me from the nearest tree or tell me to go take a flying leap. Contracts are contracts and deadlines are deadlines. But I’d rather see this particular book be good than turn it in sub-par. And after almost three years of having no life other than a writing one, I’m feeling a bit like a gerbil on a wheel. It’s called a touch of burnout. Authors have to watch out for this—it’s insidious and it creeps up on you. Writing is not a normal office job, and we do need time to refill our creative wells. In this case, I’m loving the research and it IS refilling my creative well, but I need the time to do it, and the time to write much more than one draft. The launch book for a series requires a lot of set-up for books to follow, too. But enough about that. What is your opinion? Is it better to confess well ahead of time that you need an extension on a project, or is it better to promise it on deadline and then simply not meet that deadline? (Birgit or other editors, if you’re reading this, please chime in!) All best, Karen

I have to say that I'm not

I have to say that I'm not an editor and I have no experience to advise you with. But it sounds like you're being very hard on yourself. You could have the book in on time, but as you said, it wouldn't be as good as the book you would turn out if given the time to concentrate on it. I for one love your books, and look forward to reading this one whether it comes out next week or next year. Keep smiling. Maria

Permission v. Forgiveness?

Isn't there a saying that it's easier to ask for forgiveness than permission? Maybe that works for breaking curfew when you're a kid, but for deadlines, I dunno. I'd ask for an extension on a project b/c I'd feel too guilty and nervous about it not getting accepted to work well. I agree with Maria-- it seems like you're putting a lot of pressure on yourself, despite having a great track record and a reason (rather than an excuse) for requesting an extension. I hope the editor can appreciate that the wait will be well worth it. Good luck with both books!

I agree

I'm fastidious in the same way with deadlines, Karen, but I think you not only made the right choice asking for an extention -- which is the professional choice, and one which keeps your editor in the loop and allows them to adjust if necessary -- but I agree with Maria that you are being too hard on yourself. Just my vote, but I think there's no shame in asking for an extension, especially when you've obviously not made a habit of it, and you need the time. You're only human after all, not a machine. Have some chocolate, wine, and pat yourself on the back for doing the right thing, and not just letting your book slide into being late. Personally, I don't know how anyone can do that and sleep. LOL

Sam

been there done that

I've always heard from editors that they much appreciate when we let them know ahead of time that we need an extension, rather than just turning a book in late. I had to ask for an extension at least once, and it sucked to do it for the first time, but my editor was very gracious and helpful about it. I've been feeling quite a bit of creative burnout recently, and it is not a fun feeling, I know. Hope you get a chance to refill the well soon, Karen.

deadlines schmedlines

This happened to me last year, Karen - tight deadlines for my trilogy and continuity book,and the teen TV series I created in New Zealand went into production 6 months early. The producers also wanted to run the show in a different time slot, so not only did we have to go back over the highly polished first five scripts and "age" them up for an older demographic, we also has to replot the remaining ten episodes and rewrite them. I had three months there where I had to write every single day or perish. I put on A LOT of weight! And I started to lose any sense of perspective on my work. In the end, I asked for a small extension on my continuity book, and got it. But you know what - at the end of the day, it's the work that you have to be true to. It's going out with YOUR name on it, it's one of the vital building blocks in building YOUR reputation and career, and it deserves to leave your desk when YOU think it's ready. And I bet they can squeeze a little more time out of the production process to make up for your extension. Needs must, and all that. Stay sane, and remember why you write. I have just read the first half of Steven Kings On Writing, and found it very inspiring, funny, sad and charming. I love to write. Don't let deadlines take that away from you.

tangent

Karen, hope you don't mind me asking an offshoot question, since I just handed in my August blaze and I'm feeling pretty burnt out myself at the moment, and I plan to take 2-3 non writing weeks (no book writing, that is -- I'll still be around here, LOL You can't get rid of me that easily...)

But I remember the first time I burnt out, August 2005, after I handed in my second book and my HotWires proposal, and I was whacked -- I couldn't write anything, and had total panic. I didn't write for a month, and was sure it was all over. ;) But shortly after, I realized it was burnout, and started realizing that's part of the writing cycle, and if you learn to recognize it, and deal with it, it's not as bad as you think.

So, how do people deal with burnout in their jobs? Or even with their kids, families, etc? For me, usually a little time off does the trick, but I think everyone probably suffers burnout from time to time -- how do you know it's burn out, and what are other ways of dealing with it?

Sam

Burn Out

This is going to sound silly maybe but when I'm burnt out I have a couple of ways of dealing with it: 1) I drive home a different way. I have a 40 minute commute but tend to drive the same way back and forth to work every day. Just driving a different way, makes me look at things differently. This is how I deal with burn out from the job. That 40 minutes is a good time to put things behind me. 2) If The Child (15 going on 40!) is getting me down, I take a bath. I like baths anyway but it's a good way to get away from him. It gives me time to figure out how best to deal with him...later. And the time out I've given myself is usually enough time for his mood to change also. 3) If my DH is stressing me out, I treat myself to some dark chocolate I have tucked away. Since I like to savour my chocolate, I just let it melt on my tongue. It's difficult to talk when chocolate is melting so that keeps me from saying something that probably won't help the situation. They're little ways I've learnt to deal. And I keep a gratitude journal. Every night before bed I write down three things I can be grateful for that day. Some days, I really have to stretch for that third one ("I'm grateful this is the last damned thing I need to write today!") but looking back through it (even if it's just in my thoughts), really helps me screw my head back on the right way! ani

Advice

Karen, Don't be afraid to ask for an extension. I'm sure you'll get it. Then all you have to do is relax, take a few deep breaths, load up on the coffee and let your creative juices flow. Sometimes just a few extra weeks can make a difference between a good MS and a bad MS. Sometimes it's just good to be able to vent and get it out of your system. I'm very confident that you'll do just fine, Now, all you have to do is make yourself believe it. Check your PO. Box. There might be something in it from me that might just help you relax, or at least give you a much needed boost. Hang in there. Hugs, Mads:)

(((Karen))) and banish the

(((Karen))) and banish the quilt! Sometimes, you have to do what's best for you. Take care and before you know it, you'll be back in the saddle again. Don't stress! Dawn

Hi, everyone-- thanks for

Hi, everyone-- thanks for your comments! I really appreciate the feedback. Yes, we do have to take care of ourselves--AND our books. LOL. The memory of the butt-chewing will fade, but what ends up in print is permanent, right? All best, K, off to read Joanne's blog entry!